The Escape: My Journey Into Light

Nieve!!!!!

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 15:26:51 GMT

It's snowing!!!!!1 I feel like a little kid again! I just want to go outside and play in it. The county let us stay home today, for the first time in some years so I'm super excited! I should use this opportunity to catch up on my school work.

I can't take this!

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 23:12:56 GMT

As Linkin Park's song goes "I'm about to break." I'm really beginning to lose it here. Since my imouto left, things have lightened up a bit, but it's still the same old thing. My ojisan acts one way when my hahaoya and her kareshi are here, but when they leave, his entire demeanor changes. I can't stand it. I wish everything would just go back to normal. There is so much negative air in this house. I can't wait to move in with my hahaoya!

KAGRRA

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 00:51:16 GMT

This band is sooooooooo awesome!!! I just love them! I recently started listening to them, and I like them so much! I love Isshi's voice! I could fall asleep listening to them. Gosh, sorry, I had a total ~~fan-girl~~ moment just now ^_^;; But yeah KAGRRA ROCKS TO THE MAXIMUM, and that's really all I had to say.

Ungratefulness (Is that a word?)

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 22:15:28 GMT

I was in my math class today, and I heard this girl say that she hated school. I don't know why, but that just made me so angry! Does she not know how much of a privilege is, to be able to get an education?? Does she not realize how blessed she is, to be able to obtain an education? Doesn't she know that there are so many children out there, who are without an education, and that they would gladly trade places with her to be able to get one. Why are people in the world so wasteful on things today? They 're to caught up in themselves, to realize how good we have it hear in America. Why are they so ungrateful, unappreciative, and why do they take things for granted? They are so blessed and fortunate to have so many wonderful opportunities presented to them, but they fail to realize it. People in this country strive, and they work hard to give us this life of luxury, and do we repay them? We say things like; "I hate school", or they slack off, never make things of themselves, and become a statistic. People need to stop and take a good look around them. They need to become more appreciative of things that are given to them, because it may seem like nothing to you, but for a person in one of those third-world countries, it would certainly mean a great deal more.

Why?

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 07:58:07 GMT

I don't get you, mommy. Why do you make me feel this way? Why do you raise up my hopes, and fill my head with false promises? Why do I let you do this to me, time after time? Why do I keep letting myself get set up for disappointment? Why can't you ever take me seriously? I feel that every-time that I try to have a serious conversation with you, you change the subject. Is it because, deep down inside, you you know that you are wrong? Do you ever feel guilty? Would you like it if I never called you? If I never wanted to see you? If I just stopped caring, and started ignoring you, like so many kids do their parents today? Can you honestly tell me that you would want something like that? It sure seems like it to me. I wish that I wasn't so attached to you. If I wasn't, then maybe this would be easier fof me. I hate feeling this way! I don't want to believe these negative thoughts in my head, but every-time you disappoint me, I find it harder and harder, to think positive. I'm consumed by the dark thoughts that take up residence in my mind. I find it harder to believe that things will start to look up soon, and you do nothing to quell my fears. I feel that I can't rely on you anymore. I can't count on you anymore. I can no longer trust your words. Your promises are starting to become useless. No matter how many times I tell myself not to get my hopes up, I always end up doing exactly that. I know that I should no longer trust you, but I can't help to. I love you.